baby has a lot of kicks, I don't know if he is happy or not.
The whole procedure of this preganency, come to now, it is more than 7 months, but not too many days are peaceful or restful. I feel so much sorry for the baby. I do love him, I did try my best to keep him comfortable, but I have so many responsiblities need to finish, I have to work hard to complete them. the so-called father did not help anything, only know how open the mouth to talk about future,  but no action at all. I feel so sad about the baby and dalsten and olympica, because I only have this ability to do so much. but I believe life is more important that anything else, so I keep the life, I hope u will not complain on me in the future. I did my best. I even more tired than ever. If I want to be lazy, I can just leave u along. but now, you have so much movements, I hope I never hure u because of all those masses in the reality. I hope after a long time, all my children will appreciate what I did for them.