Still I have not found what I am looking for - happiness. Actually often times I found myself very much stressed in the pursuit. Yes, not sad, just stressed! Today, I finally understood a painting hanged on my wall for 10 years - "Heaven is within". Seek not outside yourself. Here are 12 tips from Gabrielle Reece: 

1. Own the feeling and blame no one. If you feel a certain way, express it. Don't indulge but recognize how you're feeling. Next, do not blame anyone or thing. Own the entire situation.
   
   
2. Get involved. If you don't like the way things are, get involved and be a part of the change and solution.
   
   
3. Move. No, not your address, your butt. Just get out several times a week and sweat and feel your heart pump. That heart beating will remind you that you're alive. Realizing that you are with the living on a regular basis is a gift. Appreciating life and not just "living it one day to the next" help your perspective.
   
   
4. Change the way you see it. Sometimes it can be almost as easy as shifting your point of view about a circumstance. A screaming baby is healthy enough to cry. Sitting in traffic means not being in an accident. Can you find the good and not dwell on the bad or difficult?
   
   
5. Eat healthy. Food affects your brain, body, and mood. Try to find a way to not go up and down with sugar, caffeine, and alcohol. People, listen to me -- food does impact us.
   
   
6. Make time for fun. Dance, laugh, hang with friends, travel, go on an adventure, snuggle with family, take a bath, hike, go for a bike ride, read a great book, enjoy a beautiful meal. Just do stuff whenever you can that is fun. It's not always about work, school lunches, and folding the laundry. Yes, those things have to get done, but can you squeeze in some fun?
   
   
7. Connect with your spiritual side. (I'm going out on a limb here -- people have strong opinions about this topic). God, Buddha, nature -- whatever god is for you. Why? This is the essence of life. Plus I often feel like if I'm accountable for my spiritual life, I will continue to keep trying. Trying to do the right thing. Trying to see the positive and the blessings. To have a guide.
   
   
8. Laugh when you think it sucks. You know -- when you're having "one of those days," and it's one nutty thing or person after the next. Learn to laugh.
   
   
9. Stretch and breathe. Most of us don't take 10 deep belly breaths a day. We walk around shallow chest breathing all day long. Deep breaths help your body process stress. When you're driving in your car, make an effort to take nice deep breaths. Next thing is stretch out your body. We sit in chairs and cars all day long, and we need to stretch out our muscles and joints. It can feel so good. Just do it 5-15 minutes a day on the floor in front of the TV.
   
   
10. Make sure you're getting enough rest. Sleep deprivation is a form of torture for a reason. Lack of sleep will make you cuckoo.
    
    
11. Don't be a victim.
    
    
12. Build a balanced relationship.