Father told me that my grandpa (Mom side) passed away last night. Mom was in the hospital at that time. He cried when he told me this bad news. I don't have many memeories about my grandpa.  In my memory, he was optimistic, broad minded. These characteristics was a tie to connect his children and grandchildren.  He was the main support in the big family.

Like my grandpa, my father is also an unreplaceable support in our family. So when I heard him cry, I really felt upset. Father is always the hero in my heart. He is talented and diligent. He is strong and confident. He represents a good man to me. My father only cried twice so far in front me. The first time was when I came to this country. I didn't expect him to cry. I knew how he was unwilling to let me go. As a father, he might want to protect his children all the time. However, little birds have to be grown up and experience difficulties. Now it is the 2nd time. He may feel he is getting old and not strong anymore. He has his weakness and fear too, like everybody else in the world. 

I am not sure what I can do now to make my parents feel better. I hope I can take good care of them later. I hope my son will bring them happiness. Life is complicated. We struggle to find balance, between work and family, between old generation and younger one. That is the road we have to take, that is the process we have to learn.


May my grandpa rest in peace in heaven.