29 July �� 13 Aug, Guangzhou Shall I call her home or not? I’ve had a life here, a pretty good life, but I’ve had dreams, and I’ve left the city behind, without regret. Walking on the streets, it felt like I’ve had a previous life. ‘I was once laughing at here, crying in that shop, eating in this restaurant, arguing with someone just around that corner, this was my favourite caf?, I used to play tennis over there, I lived in that flat, was once in love with someone ┅’ everything came up like a movie. What if I hadn’t had left the city, what my life would be like? I might be still doing nothing, but not worrying anything, everything would be dealt with by someone; living like a robot, everyday I would have getting up after noon, eat, watch TV, spending that certain somebody’s money, lie on the couch, drinking wine, and repeat. Well, it might not be like this, however, I don’t care, je ne regrette rien. 13 Aug �� 6 Oct, Zibo Zibo, my hometown, but I’m a stranger to her. The city has changed completely, like someone has done a plastic surgery. To be honest, I don’t like this new face, fake is the word. The city is busying economically developing. The environment consequently became the victim. The city is filled with fog, think London in the 18th century might be just like this. Agricultural lands are disappearing. In stead, there are more and more 8-drives motorways which the only use is for showing to potential foreign investors; and those commercial estates which allow no ordinary citizens dare to dream to have a home of their own. Peasants have been put into those ugly block buildings, they can no longer live on farming, but what should they do for living now? Nobody cares. I am sorry to say it, but the city is a freak. 6 Oct �� Present, Qingdao I took a deep breath, opened my eyes, thank God, fresh air and blue sky! Over 2 months, this is the first time I see blue sky, breathe fresh air, and walk on clean streets. I am exited of what the city holds for me. I will need to find a church, hopefully a cell group too. I long to meet people and make new friends, I hardly know anybody in this city, and I don’t feel good about it. I am desperate┅of starting a life.