One of our professors told us that a well balanced life should consist of three parts: career life, family life and personal life. Well, I think my life could be more balanced if I have my family life going on. But in the past, family life was all I concerned. As a woman raised up in a traditional Chinese family, "husband" had been the center of my life. There was no life or no mood to "enjoy" other parts of life if there's no a husband around. I couldn't be used to living alone happily. 

But with the slow and non-promising searching process, I realized I have to be appreciated with what I already have and let the worshiped things come naturally. So a date is just a date. No complicating it with thought of future potential. Just meet up and say hi and be yourself. Enjoy the journey. 

"Lord challenges those who can handle it. I always worked hard and believed in myself", quoted from a friend. I thank lord for me to see the beauty.