I absolutely loved to watch other students' perform, and I found myself even more curious and eager to hear Michael's view. He's like this old, grumpy man who's been there, done that, tasted his share of pain. He couldn't care less about the world, the only thing he was hungry for is to feel another human soul. That's the only thing that excites him. And I found myself in the same way.

To me, connecting with the inner world of another human being, empathizing with their pain, sharing their joy, is the best thing I could possibly do.

My husband was right, I needed to do something that pleases nobody but myself, and that was exactly the right thing for me, at that time.

Slowly but gradually, I was happy again, we started hanging out with friends in New York city almost every weekend.

One day, I said to my husband:"Let's give this IVF thing another try. If it doesn't work out, we will move on. I will have no regret because a child-free life isn't so bad after all."

3 months later, I was pregnant with 丫丫. A new chapter of my life began. :-)