I really don't know if I like this job or not, or just say job. I could be a very successful man if I got her as I should, I will be so energitic and so enthusiasic to do everything and make the money, but who's gonna believe in this, you failed, that's it, they don't think you will, but who cares , I will have changed if I care. maybe i should start to make some money now, we're all getting old, maybe someday she's gonna need some, why i have to care so much, son, familly, parents, relatives and HER, why should i care myself a bit, am I not worth it? tired, really tired, i should end this meaningless life long time ago right after i knew the thing's not gonna be changed. whatever, make self feel bad again, do sth else,

why don't let me copy and paste, stupid firefox, do it next time then. why hasn't she replied my eml yet? maybe she doesn't like me at all, sad :((((((((((