While pondering on life, I thought about the type of person I want to be associated with. I realized that subconsciously, I have always wanted somebody to uplift me. 
When I am in darkness, he can push open the window and show me the light
When I am in sorrow, he will feed the sweet and thaw the bitterness in me
When I am in frustration, he will comfort me and bring back my confidence
When I am in serious mood, he can humor me and lighten up the atmosphere
Yes, a person with high moral, free spirit, ultimate wisdom and a playful heart.

At a further thought, I was still grasping. Grasping on a unreal other and a unreal me. At the inner heart, I have taken the refuge.  The refuge have saved me in all sorts of occasions.  I understand more why a person taking refuge feels more complete.  He/she always has something to rely on, to resolve issues with, and to withdraw peace from.   

I am at peace now.